So, I'm 31. I graduated from Photography school about 2 years ago...I was near the top of my class for the first time in my life and I thought my life was finally going to begin. I could start my career, finally get a place of my own, start a family, etc...But now I can't find work, I was laid off from a temporary position in November and have been looking for something since. It just really sucks because right now I really need to make some money. My mom is sick, she has cancer. My Dad is sick too with diabetes. And with my somewhat affordable yet utterly nutritionless diet of fast food, I'll no doubt be getting sick any time soon myself.
For the past 5 years or so I have been bouncing between houses. One day I am living with my boyfriends parents, or I'm at my Dad's some days, or my Moms or Sister's other days. My boyfriend also can't find work. His parents and him don't get along and they don't want us to have to live here. They purposely try to make things difficult for us to live here...like by making sure there isn't food in the house we can eat, and leaving little, nasty notes around, etc. Unfortunatly, we don't have any other place to live, so we just try to deal. It's really wearing on us both though.
It seems no matter how hard I work, it just gets worse. I don't know how much farther I can fall. My credit is bad due to a debillitating illness I suffered at 18, I wasn't able to work for 2 years. I was so hopeful when I got well, but it's depressing to see that I still can't afford my own place or start a family or to do any of the things I dreamed of doing while I was ill. Now my Mom is sick I can't do a damn thing to help, because half the time I can't even afford to drive over and visit her.
I used to believe in Karma, like if you work hard, treat people right, then good things will come your way. Now I don't know what to believe.
